‘Like I’m starting over again at 30’

Ricky Kaka has spoken for the first time since the close of the transfer window and revealed his frustration but determination at Real Madrid.

The Brazilian was expected to leave the club this summer after a reported falling out with Coach Jose Mourinho, who allegedly did not intend to include him in first-team plans for 2012-13.

However, the player did not find a new club, is involved in the first team squad for the weekend’s match with Granada and is determined to regain Mourinho’s trust.

“It is like I am starting over again at 30, despite having achieved everything that I have,” he admitted to Globoesporte today.

“I even ask myself, how much is all this effort worth? Would it not be better to go elsewhere, even to another League that is less competition?

“The answer is yes, I still want it [to play for Real Madrid].

“At the moment, I won’t be a starter, but I will return to the squad. I never came here with the intention of then leaving. I do not want to be a burden to the club. There was no offer for me, so there was no agreement to leave.”

The player also denied that his relationship with Mourinho is uneasy.

“It is a professional relationship. Mutual respect. I have never questioned him. I think that within a group a Coach has more confidence in some players than in others.

“I will look to get that confidence within the group. Training more than the others will get me my place – guaranteed.”

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